GOD IS REAL, NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL

Famine, riots, recession, floods, earthquakes, wars, freak accidents, break-ups and corruption are now regular features in our morning dailies.  What is surprising is that they don't shock anymore!  They  become routine.  Just like four seasons, each episode goes thru the cycle, one after the other, from generation to generation.  The worst scenario in a decade may have been forgotten.  Yet a mark remains that connects the present to its past.   And life goes on, the victims damaged and torn to pieces.  Just like Humpty Dumpty who sat on a wall, each had a great fall! I was not spared of great falls. Sometimes they came in pairs.  Let me just highlight a pair.  And these were the lighter falls:

• When PNB and its congenerics were privatized 1n 1991, I was forced to retire from government service.  We bought an AUV from my separation pay to help sustain our growing family needs. In one of its provincial trips via the north expressway,  the van overturned when one of its wheels loosed fit and pitched itself away from the van!  It was a second-hand unit and insurance just covered minimal costs of repair.  One passenger sustained injuries that required clutches for years for a damaged leg.  With the initial loss on the van operations,  I wondered whether we had  chosen the right business or not.  I was thankful still cause Ernie was unharmed.
• We were just recuperating from cash shortfalls when one day while cleaning the van, Ernie showed signs of pain on his chest.  We brought him to the hospital where he was rushed to the ICU.  He had a heart  attack and they called it myocardial infarction.  They said it could have been fatal had we been delayed for a few minutes.  Thank God Ernie survived.  But there were so many "don't's". That meant lots of adjustments in everything.  We did cost cutting on some budgets to allow more on priorities like medicines.  That also meant more ways to earn. Sacrifices were made.  We could no longer afford private schools for all my children so the rest were transferred to public schools.    

With God's grace, I passed the tests.  There were all sorts of  healing:  physical, emotional, relational and spiritual. His grace was more than sufficient to bring back together the broken pieces. My faith grew as God showed me He was in full control all the time.  With all my tears,  I knew God was so near that  I could still smile.  Yes, GOD IS REAL, NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL!!




Never mind all the troubles around you

Just wear a smile when your eyes are in tears

Just remember God is always beside you

God is real….no matter how you feel.

Don’t be alarmed when your friends desert you

Don’t be afraid when the dark clouds appear

Don’t forget God will never abandon you

God is real….no matter how you feel.

God may seem so distant

God may seem to turn his back on you

God may seem to be deaf to your cries

But all these, all these are untrue.

God is here, He knows everything about you

God is near, He knows your doubts and your fears

God is real, He knows what is best for you

God is real, no matter how you feel.